nice rainy weekend

this is the last january 2008 weekend im talkin bout. well friday went to ben's house ate, talked bout stuff and edited the trailer for cupcake no fillin ep3. saturday Krishia, Rachel, Gelgel and richard (j. holiday) came over and we practiced cha-cha. that was kinda fun but then sunday came went to eat korean BBq for lunch with my dad then went to At&t and verizon. where i thought i was gonna get a new phone but not rlly. then i realized sumthing i rather wanna have drama than no drama at all like evryday is da same thing nothing changes nothing diffrent. i was nvr the best at anything never was the most anything never accomplish anything even tho i work for it. but im type of person that accept for what they are . i accept my self, my friends and whatever tha thing is. thats why im always the friends and the guy who ppl come to for comfort for entertaiment. like when ppl describe me they always say yeah " that guy is funny and hella kewl to chill with". but sometimes i wanna be da serious guy bcuz i feel like ppl dont take me seriously but even though sometimes i try to change or show a diffrent side of me i always tend to go back to the funny random weird guy that i am but sometimes i wanna kno how it feels like to be normal. or like the guy who is normal i guess. see i dont know what normal is so i can nvr be normal. but i wanna kno atleast one day or acouple of hours how it feels like to be normal. sometimes i feel like im annoying my friends or when i say sumthing wrong i feel like making it up to them. im the kind of guy that looks happy from the outside the "livin the good life guy" but in the inside i tend to store all my feelings inside until 1 day it all comes out like right now as im writing this blog i started tearing and a pain in my chest as if i juss got broken hearted. but by the end of it all i just wanna be free.