Addicted to the game

i dont even kno why i blog maybe bcuz i try to let my feelings out but i tend to let my feelings and my thoughts. i tend to figure stuff out on a daily basis like how today i figure out why i like to do so much stuff. like spittin flows, making videos, breaking, active club stuff and w/e i can think in my head that could fill up my day. iono maybe to cover up all the unbeatyfullness that i have. like im skinny and no matter how much i eat i stay da same sumtimes even lose more weight. or im not dat sexy or "cute" yeah sumtimes i get jealous of my other set of friends that i would hide as the homeboys theres 3 of them. bcuz these 3 always tend to stick 2gether and think da same similar stuff even tho dey are all diffrent. but neways im also too tall and not that rip but dont get it twisted i'll knock a motha out but yea. all i try to promote is my personality and skills. i always think dat the more i can do the more of the chances i have with the ladies but w/e now. all im saying is dat maybe all this stuff dat i do might not be bcuz i like doin it. bcuz it gives me an oppurtunity to shine but i bet if i stand toe to toe with one of the homeboys i will nvr stand a chance. if me and my friends form a line where girls started rating all of us juss by looks i might not be able to keep up. so i try to be funny, at least some how attractive but iono i wanna kno how it feels like to be this 1 homeboy dat i will hide by da name bright eyes. this dude always tends to have any girl he puts his eyes on. bright eyes always seems to have game and the right stuff. he sumtimes puzzles me even tho i wanna ask him questions like how do u do it. i tend not to bcuz i dont wanna sound like a lil bitch. but the way my mind works is if i have skills that not any ordinary man can do. i may juss level up to the guys that i get amazed of. but 1 day im gonna be da guy who is the amazing one.